I am feeling better, to answer a question that (might) be on some of your minds. Perfect and 100%? No, but better than it was.
But based on Deb’s LJ post about her Nano novel and mistaking Justin for Jvstin, I thought I would explain just why that, instead of something else, is my online persona name…
I don’t have a real middle name.
None of my brothers was given a middle name at birth. It was not as popular then as it is now. My older brother did receive a middle name at Confirmation (one of the sacraments in Catholicism).
Neither myself nor my younger brother were as rigrously educated, theologically, and so I didn’t get a middle name by that route.
Peer pressure and a bit of envy played on me. My elementary and then junior high school classmates had middle names (I lived in an area with a high Catholic population). I had none, and felt that isolating factor impinge on me. I didn’t like that feeling.
So I decided that I would invent one.
My first attempt at a middle name was a resounding failure. Although I liked the name Douglas, it drew derision and ridicule. Even into High School, I could be given a rise out of someone calling me “Dougie fresh.”
I decided to be more discreet and private on the matter, henceforth. My interests in Greek and Roman stuff were percolating and growing in high school, and I had read Amber, and felt an affinity for Julian.
Thus, I decided that my middle name, unofficially, was going to be Justin.
When it came to joining the online world, though, I cast about in my mind for a good email name. Justin was of course already used, but I realized that many people might not think of a Romanesque spelling…substituting a v for the u.
And thus Jvstin was born.
I’ve thus tried to use Jvstin whenever possible as usernames on bulletin boards, on IRC, and so forth. I get a little miffed when someone beats me to the punch, such as on LJ itself. I’m the “real” Jvstin.
As far as personality goes, I will point out that Lisa, for example, much preferred calling me Justin in person rather than Paul. She thought I was much more the one than the other, admittedly because she was first exposed to Jvstin. And she is not the only person that has thought of me as Justin/Jvstin rather than my given name, especially *blush* in intimate situations. (The scene in When Harry Met Sally when Billy Crystal’s character talks about names and sexual activity actually seems to apply in my case)
So Jvstin is a very important facet of my personality and is indeed my online “face” at large. I won’t probably ever officially change my real name to add Justin as a middle one, but for all intents and purposes, that is what my middle name is.
And now you know where Jvstin comes from.